OK, so this isn't about fashion. I don't know when I'll get creative enough to do more than post whatever is bugging me at the moment. But I figure this is a good place to vent my feelings and frustrations without hurting those that it is possibly about.
My first rant or vent or whatever is about my ex. I really hate that I still miss him. I don't want to. I don't want to still think about him. I hate that I still look for him to come on line, that I look for an e-mail that just says hello. I mean people who say that they are your friend send e-mails occasionally. It could be that it is just a bit of nostalgia, today is the day he came back after a short absence. And it was such a good day. I know deep down that he probably isn't the man I thought he was, and that makes me sad. I guess I just expect more from people, from someone that you spent so much time with, that you share so many details of your life with. I guess I just miss having that certain someone.
My other rant and it is a rant is about people who want to become part of your sl life so quickly. I like spending time with all kinds of people in sl. Go to different clubs, shop, have some quality one on one time if you know what I mean. Why do some people feel the need to attatch so quickly? In the 3 years I have been in sl I have had one long term partnered relationship that lasted a year and a half. We clicked and it worked for us. Before that I had friends that I was involved with but nothing like this new person. In one day its lets be together totally exclusive. I think its sweet but borders on the clingy. I can't sign on with out an instant IM. And I don't like to do it but I had to lie just to get some alone time. I'm afraid that I may end up having to mute him seeing as explaining that I don't want that type of relationship doesn't seem to slow the IM's as of yet. I hate to mean to people especially people who seem so sweet but I hope I don't have to but I may end up being the bitch.
